I can't do this

Forget meditation
Forget banting
Forget exercise
Forget medication
Forget keto
Forget walking
Forget talking
Forget old friends
Forget new friends
Forget family
Forget jobs
Forget earning
Forget maintaining
Forget coping
Forget improving
Forget getting better, because I can't
Nothing works or helps or matters

Black Dog

There has been a black dog following me my entire life. At first I did not know that it was there. Eventually I came to recognise it, and, at a stage even thought that I had beaten it. But it came back, again and again and again. When it is gone, I am chemically gone.